Forgive me my dear

Its day 3 of my grandma funeral. I didnt stay over last night as i went back home to sleep in Bishan. I was just too tired and shagged, crashed onto my bed after a shower and slept with my lights on till dawn. I woked up to a sms by Min, telling me to wake up or i will be late >.< guess what, it was too late. I went down to my grandma's place later that morning and spend the rest of the day there. Well, it was really boring but i survived! thanks u my dear. Later tonight u came to visit me, even though it was an hour dinner, or maybe shorter. I'm sorry that i have to disappoint u again tonight when my mom wants me to stay over. I truly miss u my dear and i wish to spend more time with u, especially before your stressful A. The lost of my Grandma came as sudden to me. I am grateful that u came down last night and spend hours there with me, folding and talking to me. I bear all these things in mind baby. Everything u do means so much to me and there is only one way to recipocate these love u have for me, is to love u back even more. I want to be by your side whenever i can and take care of u. I do hear you my dear. Just that my actions are always not identical to what i say. I hate this