life's good

I wish every sun will be like today :P

Min Min and I spend the afternoon at her place:D Its pretty goOd to be all alone at home... >< CAN DO ANYTHING WE WANT RIGHT! ahem! :P anyway.... My J1 days are almost over! MinMin is gonna be out of school soon! :( oh boy! lucky girl! u are finally free! ARGG!!!! its gonna be the toughest 1 month of your life. Hang in there kay! Once its over, u are fre to roam:P Do whatever u want kay? I wont stop u. Go travel for 1 month if possible. Go see the world when u can :) i love u silly! Study Hard!!!!!

Forgive me my dear

Its day 3 of my grandma funeral. I didnt stay over last night as i went back home to sleep in Bishan. I was just too tired and shagged, crashed onto my bed after a shower and slept with my lights on till dawn. I woked up to a sms by Min, telling me to wake up or i will be late >.< guess what, it was too late. I went down to my grandma's place later that morning and spend the rest of the day there. Well, it was really boring but i survived! thanks u my dear. Later tonight u came to visit me, even though it was an hour dinner, or maybe shorter. I'm sorry that i have to disappoint u again tonight when my mom wants me to stay over. I truly miss u my dear and i wish to spend more time with u, especially before your stressful A. The lost of my Grandma came as sudden to me. I am grateful that u came down last night and spend hours there with me, folding and talking to me. I bear all these things in mind baby. Everything u do means so much to me and there is only one way to recipocate these love u have for me, is to love u back even more. I want to be by your side whenever i can and take care of u. I do hear you my dear. Just that my actions are always not identical to what i say. I hate this

Not leaving without you

You mean so much to me baby, u really do. I want you to be happy no matter what. But somehow i feel that i can't :( dont keep thing to yourself? It hurts me to see u all quiet. I feel lost when u are quiet. I'm just not used to it. You are always cheerful and bubbly, someone whom never say die. I need you to talk to me kay. Really. I wanna be your listening ears. U know how terrible i feel when u are all quiet. It affects me too. I love u baby, i really do! thats why i can't just sit back and pretend nothing happened. Its just not me.

Life's Ups and Downs

Humans are pretty vulnerable. From the birth of a newborn to the dying bed of a lonely old man, life's two extreme ends brings us either joy or sadness. We are blessed with the ability to think with our heart, to let our emotions run wild, making us so unique and superior.Well, no one is spared from death, including my beloved grandma.

Ever since i could recall, my grandma was always there for me. From a young and playful boy who spends his entire childhood with her. I could still vividly remember those carefree days where lunch was prepared by her. She thought me how to speak dialect something that i am really proud of. She walked me to school, fetched me from school every single day. I wish she was as healthy and fit as she was then, but the ageing process is merciless. Now, shes in hospital and her consider is not good. She's down with a recent heart attack which made her even weaker. Seeing up suffering makes me feel terrible. Dont ever give up ah ma, i need u.

Its my Mom's birthday today and she has not even cut her cake. I'm not a believer of god, but i do hope that u will make our wish come true. See ah ma through her last days and make it a happy one. Thats all i ask for.

Oh man! my dead really hurts man :/ but.... :D its okay!
Well, i couldn't help but to wonder what made me who i am today?
Can it be my surrounding? My parents? MY friends? or just a rebelious kid
in me that is dying to break free. Sometimes i feel that im too soft to my friends and harsh to my parents and close ones :/ what's wrong with me! why am i like dat?! OH BOY!!! ANGER MANAGEMENT REQUIRED FOR ME!!!! could anyone enlighten me? >.<

oh well! results of promos are almost out... Indicators of me making it to year 2 seems weak.Is JC really my cup of tea? sometimes i ask myself if i did the right thing to do the A lvls. Knowing that im a person who takes the shortest path at times, could this be one of them? i know its best for me to settle it in 2 years, just mug and pull thru, but isit really the best for me? The results are fixed and its only the matter of time when the reality sinks in. Make it up to year 2 , retain in year 1 , or just go poly. We will see kay :) we will see. Miss Goh said this to my class before: If life is full of uncertainties and unhappiness, but if one things for sure, the sun will always rise. A start of a brand new day that is full of possibilities.

God SAVE me! :( promo is in days and im gonna freak out! everything i have learnt will be tested.

I dont feel prepared at all somehow! :( oh gosh.... tough times i suppose... BUT..... I found you just slightly more than 3months ago.... and it just seem to be working out really well! :D

Baby! :D i know this is kinda late but i just wanna tell u how much u changed me in 3 months! U are like a magician that make the slightest unhappiness in me disappear! I can't never get angry with u silly! U are just that amazing! Tell me why are u so AWESOME arh! :P and u are hidding all these while! so unfair! :( oh boy! i have u now! im not going to let u go! what are u gonna do abt that uh?! :D TEEHEE! u know what? i look forward each day to see u in school and just talk to you. U make me feel really calm and happy. Something that i yearned for in a really long while. With u i can ask no more, because u are everything! :) im not flattering u in anyway, but all u did for me is already enough! Save some for yourself! ><>