i tried, i really did

Give it your best shot! Thats what everyone will to you when u are in a tense and tied up situation. When u give in your best and you still don't meet their expectation, how would u feel?

Times can be rough and rocky but with your close friends things might change. I have my archery team, charis, schoolmates to accompany me but why am i still so lonely?

I remembered the first time i met Charis. Its kinda coincidental but things went on well. Call it fate, we hit off really well and till date i never once regretted meeting her. I really loved her company, laughter, humour and everything about her. After going steady with her for 2 months, i feel that i learnt more about myself. However, why am i always fighting with her? Its not what i want okay? Clash of conflicts happened too frequently and i'm not proud about it. I can give in to her and everything, but it seem like its not working at all. I hate myself at times. i really do. Am i not doing enough? Am i doing it all wrong? I hope not. Yes i can be jealous about stuff. I really hope that things will change.